` bleed it out baybeh !

2011-02-22T14:25:00.001+08:00

hello all. i've moved! no longer using blogger. where to? go figure guys (: deuces~~~

2011-01-31T13:11:00.003+08:00

im sorry to have to do this on your big day. im sorry i have to spoil your day. im sorry i have to make you sad. im sorry have to be harsh. im sorry i have to say those words. im sorry for breaking your heart. im sorry for not coming upfront. im sorry for not being able to be by your side. im sorry i have to end the relationship. im sorry for being an ass. im sorry for changing. im sorry for messing everyth up. im sorry for causing trouble. im sorry for doing this to you. im sorry for making you in trouble. im sorry for not being there for you. im sorry for everyth. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry.

i know sorry wont chnge a thing, bt still i mean every single sorry that i've stated here. i rly do. be happy with someone else. you've gt yours while i've gt mine. i wont be crawling back to you. and pls dont ever come back crawling to me. i think this is the way that Allah has shown me. he wants me to be happy with someone else. gdbye love.

2011-01-31T12:47:00.002+08:00

E54C/E56E

the best class i ever had ♥

JIVE was definitely a great and awesome event. everyth went well for the hunks and babes event as well as for the YAMI yoghurt booth. thanks to this awesome class, we worked as a class and sure had a lot of fun. though we did not get much profit out of it, it was indeed an experience that i would never trade for. it was indeed a great experience and i hope we could stay on and be a class forever. oh well, too bad that cnt be true for rp's system sucks. to chnge class every nw and thn is rly sickening. bt still i love you guys. i'll rmbr you guys no matter what. the best class i ever had in rp. brownies for all on the last day!! ♥

2011-01-18T20:49:00.001+08:00

I FEEL SO HAPPY. HOW I WISH WE COULD MEET AGAIN CUTE GUY (: INSYA ALLAH.

The event on Saturday was the bomb. It was worth the short slp that I had the day before. It was worth waking up early in the morning. The event at Sentosa was just too awesome. I just loved every single second of it. How I wish I could rewind the time and go back to when I saw that guy. Ahhhhhhh~~

Anw, the Hot and Breathless event was about soccer and volleyball competition and also the Hunks and Babes contest. Just like what my class is doing for JIVE fiesta! oh man, what will a girl do when she’s at Sentosa Siloso beach? LOOK AT BOYS OF COURSE! Oh man, the guys over there, I just can’t take my eyes off them. The hot bods, the hot faces, oh man I can just go crazy over there. And then I got my eyes on someone. Someone who looks so cute yet has a charming and sweet smile. I was taken aback at first but managed to get a hold of myself then. Hehh. He was freaking cute! Managed to snap a photo with him. Yayy!! Thanks to the 2 minahs for calling out to him. Embarrassed much cn????? Hahaha. I hope we’ll get to meet again mr cute (:

And to you mr sweet smile, I hope we’ll get to see each other again :D I just love seeing you smile. It just melts my heart. I can go gaga over that smile.

Walking and dancing in the rain was awesome. It was so long since I did that. Just felt so good to be doing that. Walking and dancing with the crazy bunch, it felt so good. I might wana do this again with them.

okay and tmrw is law UT. I’ve not touched a single thing. I think i shall just go and study a lil bit and then off to bed. Head’s in a mess right nw.

Chiaossssss (:

2011-01-11T22:49:00.002+08:00

TOP is my drug right nw (Y)

2011-01-11T22:37:00.002+08:00

stress reliever (Y)

& kau, jgn pikir aku hadap sgt dgn kau nye text. casanova, tk sedar diri. relax sua. gi cermin muke kau dulu pn baek eh. babi, knnccb.

2011-01-11T20:31:00.003+08:00

entah brape byk pompan dier text in one day eh? siak ah, seriously, prangai sundal sia. tu pn maseh ade org nk keja2 dier. tsk. bukak la mate siket. seriously, as a friend, aku doa byk2 so that Allah akan bukak mate kau one day (:

2011-01-11T14:37:00.000+08:00

okay bye, shall go and study for UT. everyth's in a mess just because of that stupid problem. urgh.

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okay adios! (:

2011-01-11T14:30:00.000+08:00

HELL YEAH IT IS.

2011-01-11T14:23:00.000+08:00

i just fucking hate people who choose DICKS OVER PUSSIES. they are just fucking hypocrites. so i wish you all the best with that dick. if you guys were to be together, rest assure you wont get any blessings form me.

i nvr thought you could turn out to be this way. so fucking disappointed in you. may Allah show you the right path okay. Amin.

2010-12-28T22:55:00.000+08:00

and so today was nth special except that had to go tour arnd sembawang park. boring much? yes, pretty much. so met up with the rest and went on straight to sembawang park. it had been quite sometime since i stepped into sembawang park. that was nth much, we just had to plan some leisure activities out and make sure the place is suitable and all. and so, right aft that we just went to eat. for the whole of 4 hours, we sat and talked at kfc. there was so many things to talk abt. standard, boys will have thier own stories, and me the girl will have other things to talk. bt it was fun having to get to knw a lot of things from them.

BUT SERIOUSLY, ASSIGNMNTS ARE BEING A BITCH! DEADLINE IS LIKE NXT WK AND I HAVE NOT FINISHED A SINGLE THING YT! GOTTA DO IT FAST AND STUDY FOR UT. DAMN, SUCH A BUSY WEEK YT NOT MUCH TIME.

but still, imma enjoy myself during the bbq. shall not let these assignmnts get into my mind on that day. yayy! it's this thurs. im sooooo gona enjoy myself!

and yayy for my dearest darling coz she's finally bck in spore! god knws hw much i 've missed her for the whole wk. oh man, it feels so gd having to text her back. im gona see you soon baby!

2010-12-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

whoah. it's been so long that i've kept this blog of mine in good condition. i missed blogging. i missed going arnd looking at other people's blogs. oh well, imma start with my very own blog right now and thn go on to others. life's been the same so far and i guess im enjoying every single moment of it though there are moments which im totally not happy about, but still live has been gd. and bbq's in a few days' time. i just cnt wait! to meet up with all my sec sch friends again. oh im sure gona enjoy myself on that day. i wana sing and play games like nobody's business. im so gona make sure that everyone else is having the same fun as i am going to have. oh well, i rly hope that the bbw will hppn smoothly. hope everyone will turn up. till thn, i'll be updating my blog regularly. i promise (:

adios dear bloggers.

2010-08-13T13:15:00.000+08:00

oh hey, SELAMAT BERPUASA TO ALL MUSLIMS! okay i knw it's the second day, but it's still nt too late to wish all of you.

right i guess this puasa feels diff to me. i dnknw, with things hppning here and there. i knw, i sound like a petty kid, alwys cmplaining of this and that but i think this is the only place that i cn say out everyth. okay, shut up. enough of that. this ramadan i just want to fulfill my resolution. which is to actually complete reciting all the 30 Juz of the Qur'an, Insya Allah and also to pray 5 times everyday. i dont feel like wasting my time doing good-for-nothing things. i just wana make my life feel more worthy this ramadan. i dont want to waste it just like that. also! am going to work out real hard this ramadan so that when i wear my new baju kurung for raya on the first day, it will feel so damn loose. haha. hw i wish la huh. bt still, im gona work hard, work out and follow my diet plan. im so nt gona gain on more weights. so that on the day of first ray, everyone will be like, "oh my, shahiira has lost a lot of weight!" chey, mcm phm ah.

okay so, to all Muslims, i hope you guys will have a wonderful ramadan and may Allah bless you guys always. not give up on puasa and make sure that you guys follow what Allah wants (:

2010-07-29T12:10:00.000+08:00

i guess it's nt that simple to get over that someone. im still hurting aft looking thru your photos with her. surprsingly, yes i am. i dont even knw why i had the urge to see your photos. it's been a while and i had been trying my best to move on. yes, i thot i did. bt thn, the hurt was still felt aft looking at your photos. i guess i've nt moved on totally. ahhhhhhhhhhhh~ this is shit. i dont wana live having these memories in my head. memories that bring heartaches and whatnots. i just want those things to get of my head and let me be free to think of other things. it's alr enough that i have so much to think of nw and with this, urgh, rly stinks man. hw i wished that our brains had a delete button which i cn easily press and yes, stupid memories will be gone. if life was that easy. oh well, i still have to carry on with life. no matter what i will still try my best to move on. like what everyone would say, everyth hppns for a reason. sighhh~

so many things that are hppning and they are rly getting on my nerves. i guess it's gona break apart. if it's nt nw, sooner or later it shall hppn. im nt praying for it to hppn bt i cn no longer see any hope in it. it's breaking apart, it's falling apart. im in despair. i feel useless nt being able to do anyth. just to watch it hppn, it seems like im being a coward who is trying so hard to get my ass covered behind any problem-proof shield. im sooooooooo depressed. i wanaa go somewhere far far far away where no one cn ever disturb my peace. i rly need to get out of this busy city. i rly dnknw what's the end result would be. either good or bad, or in this case i think it would be worst. hahhh.. it's okay, it's alright. i'll just have to hide those tears, those frowns. smile no matter what and let nobody knws of the situation that im facing. one thing for sure, i alwys believe that Allah will be by my side. i pray that everyth would be okay. Amin.

2010-07-28T13:28:00.000+08:00

oh hey! it's been soooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking long la since i last blogged. okay as normal, been busy with sch and work. urgh, no life girl.

okay so, yeah waaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy too many things have been hppning arnd here. yeah, hectic stuff, awesome stuff and so on. oh well im just here to relive this dead blog of mine. i dont knw whether it's because im too busy or just plain lazy to update this blog. im nt rly in the mood to do story telling, so yeah i promise i shall update more soon. oh here's just a random yt awesome picture of my oh-so-charming-and-wonderful-scandal (:

2010-06-29T11:42:00.000+08:00

wkends had been bad. spent my whole sat going in and out of the toilet. omg, serious shit it was darn tiring. started since friday and stopped the nxt day. wow, i was like a jelly by thn. oh well, still managed to drag myself to the doctor and gt an mc for the day. feels so gd to nt go for work.

anw, GERMANY THRASHED ENGLAND OR WHAT??? sry my dear gerrard, but im supporting germany baybeh! too bad for the controversial goal, bt still germany is through to the quarter finals. and tonight netherlands gona play and i rly hope that ibrahim afellay's gona play tonight. come on netherlands! you cn do it!

2010-06-24T03:25:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ netherland's best and hottest player. danggg.

2010-06-16T01:10:00.000+08:00

a sad song that was sang by new directions for their teacher. i cried watching this. though they lost, they didnt feel like they had lost. this song is just so touching.

2010-06-16T00:48:00.000+08:00

they were rly awesome during the regionals. bt sadly they lost to vocal adrenaline. oh well, new directions is still the best. cnt wait for the next season! hurry up and air it! and chnnl 5 is so damn slow in airing the show.

2010-06-10T11:31:00.000+08:00

yes, i admit that life has been shitty and that every single shit that hppns in my life does nt get any better. i dnknw why bt it seems like im drowning in the piles of shits given. though i knw that these are tests frm Allah, bt still, i feel like i cnt stand the shits anymore and that i need a freaking way out.

i envy happy families with loving parents. alwys spending time with their children over the wkends, going shopping together, watching movie, no fighting and shits. it's like they do nt have any problems to face. i envy the children having to have parents attending every single special occasion together, watching their child do their thing and stuff. i miss the times to have the hwole family celebrating anyone's bday in the family together. i envy those who are able to throw parties every yr just to celebrate their bdays. i envy those who would get whatever they like when they just ask for it frm their parents. i envy those who cn have parents that cn sit down together at one table and just talk abt anyth.

hw i wished that those things could be done in my family. well, shits are hppening and i didnt ask for it. i just wished that we could stay united. nw that everyth's dashing, im just holding on to a thin piece of hope, which i doubt would ever be realised. everyday i pray hard to Allah just to get the solutions to everyth. bt it takes time, i knw. help doesnt come instantly and easily.

everyone keeps seeing me as someone who does nt have any problems. wel, you guys a re wrong that nw i cnt take it anymore, i just have to let it out somewhere. no, i dont feel any better. everyth's shattering and you cnt expect me to feel oh-so-wonderful all over, do you? am still holding on that hope to just get my prayers granted. i've made mistakes and so i guess it's just a way Allah wants me suffer for a while before i get my prayers granted. it's okay. i shall wait. maybe one day, just that one day i hope will come and thn everyth will be over. everyth will be perfect. HOW I WISH.

2010-06-02T09:52:00.000+08:00

i feel so fresh and so much better aft having to run around the stadium. coz last few days i felt like i was gaining weight again. oh well, exercising gt me to lower down my stress lvl a well. imma go and run soon again. and i right nw im just hoping that my lil brother could get well soon. i miss fooling arnd with him.

so cute.

2010-05-21T03:13:00.000+08:00

AWESOME!!!!

i've lost some weight aft doing my weekly runs. best ah sia. though it's nt alot, bt still it's a motivation that will keep me going. to cntinue the workout. and soon, i'll be able to lose more weight before raya. that's what im rly hoping for. more pounds to lose. yes yes, JIAYOU!

PEACE! (:

2010-05-15T08:13:00.000+08:00

MUST WATCH.

the movie was freaking awesome and it was a rly sad sad movie. it made me appreciate my dad more. the movie did made an impact in my life. i should learn to love my dad more frm nw on. oh, im so gona watch it again (Y) seriously, it's worth the money spent. best best.

oh and nt forgetting the film's heartthrob, LIAM HEMSWORTH. ahhhhhhh~ just looking at his biceps and sexy body makes me melt. damn.

2010-05-13T12:38:00.000+08:00

THE LAST SONG BSOOOK MAN!!!!!!!!! i rly wana watch it.

sigh, currently studying like one asshole to understnd sociology theories and at the same time thinking of what to write for RJ. damn la, sociology is rly killing me slowly inside. the theories are like sooooo fcuking long and BELIT2. and the RJ mcm fuck la today. haiyoooooo

2010-05-13T06:04:00.000+08:00

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh..

i just feel so exhausted. i've gt no life. everyday, the same old shit being done. school school school, work work work. oh damn! hw i wished i was born in some wealthy family. and with the situation that my family is in, i just cnt help bt to be depressed at times. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ babi la.

serious shit, i need a time off frm my life and thn get away frm everyth. it would just be abt me. me alone, somewhere peaceful. that sounds freaking awesome. bt yeah, definitely it's impossible to do that in reality. just a wishful thinking on my part. work has been utterly, freakingly boring. with the grandmas and stupid supervisor, oh cn my working life be even worse?!! i just cnt wait for yr 3, where i cn just get my ass out of that place. and some friends just dnknw hw to get the hell out of my life. keep pestering ppl here and there, which is FCUKING IRRITATING EH. nk attract org pn, pls la. use the right method, tolong eh. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh~ these small incidents cn just lead to a greater height in my anger. damn, jgn kacau aku la.

seriously, i wana go on an island alone and get the peace of my life. with no one arnd, my mind would be problem free. no worries, no nth at all. kay bye, i shall think of what to do nw.

2010-05-04T12:44:00.000+08:00

BEST!

2010-04-27T09:36:00.000+08:00

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.
class had been fun. we've been bonding for the past wks and that i think we are getting better nw. i dnknw why i've been having some funny incidents hppening uh. shouldnt say it la coz very embarrassing. anw, hw are you guys doing? i think im doing great here. been busy with work and sch and vice versa. mcm no life gitu eh? aduuuuuuuuuuuuuuh, pnat sekali.

okay so i dnknw why uh, i've been thinking back, rmbring all the things that had been hppening during sec sch days. damn! i rly miss those moments. sitting in the class with classmates being noisy. having free periods, WITH NO PPT TO WORK ON. thn there's p.e lessons, 2.4 run, mrs nicole lim's funny faces, aniq shouting out ANGLE to me. ahhhhhhh~ memories that i could nvr frgt. everytime when anyone were to say the word angle, aniq would be the first to shout it. HAHA. and nw, when anyone were to say angle in my class, no one would do the same like he did. rindu siol. dont gt me wrong uh, i dont miss him.. bt i miss the disturbing part. okay so, other things like going to toilet to skip art lessons, being caught for whatever stupid reasons, going for detention for dying hair, going to AHHA! room for comb. humans and so on. yes, i do miss sec sch life that freaking much. minus off the o lvls and exams. it was such a memorable time of my life. i hope that poly life could bring me the same impact as sec sch.

oh yar, bsok payday siooooooooooool! i like!
kay bye :D

2010-04-21T08:31:00.000+08:00

well hello, it's been a while since i've updated this dusty blog. okay well, as you all knw, sch has alr started and that it's been a hectic wk. basically, i dont have any free days la aft sch commenced coz mon to fri would be sch day and wkends would be working days. aduuuuuuuh, i feel so exhausted frm all the studying and working. it's like the only time that i could rest is during night time, obviously.

oh well, my classmates are awesome. i knw i alwys say that for every sem. HAHA. bt i guess this class' bonding is getting better. only aft 2 days we were alr laughing our ass out at stuffs. okay coz i think we knw each other alr. okay so my facis are all great, no draggy ones and no naggy ones either. they all look so lenient and kind. i liiiiiiiiiiiiiike.

and nw that i am on a diet spree, i shall persevere to lose weight. no more junk food (yes, i seriously am trying to stop), no more late night eating, more exercises. i seriously wana lose as much weight as possible before raya. if nt, relatives will keep going like "eh eh shahiira, gemok nyer kau.." or "kau mkn aper ni smpai jdi gini? nk challenge mak and kakak kau ke?" pfffffffft! irritating siak ni org2. kurus salah, gemok salah. all mcm babi hutan. dangg.

2010-04-15T11:05:00.000+08:00

SHL WON THE TITLE THIS YEAR!

wow! this yr's SHL is awesome. they seem to be more hppening and enthusiastic. SAS kalah kapaaa? last yr came in 1st, bt this yr nth at all. bt still the jam and hop was okay. the music, as usual was loud and ear deafening. met up with syafiqah, aainaa, zul and rahmat. sadly nadiah and hanisah were nt to be seen anywhere. oh well, tmrw's first day of sch and we'll definitely meet. same blk some more! awesome awesome.

oh yes, i've seen more familiar faces. i didnt thought that there will be many if them. oh well, welcome aboard yr ones! you shall experience rp's system tmrw. hahahah

and i rly dont like microeconomics! i thought maths was over, yt this module still consists of maths. damn! business is such a chore with maths and all. oh well, im gona have to meet new classmates tmrw. pray hard that the class will be a lively class.

2010-04-13T11:21:00.000+08:00

and finally i've done my hair. i've pampered it for the whole day today and that it feels sooooooooooo soft! i like!

sch's starting on thurs and sucks to be schooling in the middle of the wk. wth is wrong with rp? have they no sense to even start teh sch on a proper mon? damn, im pretty much nt ready for sch. and rp's system is also being a bitch. i cnt even see my timetable! everyone else has seen them, and i think im like the only one who's nt able to log in. nbccb.

and so i've seen some few familiar faces for yr one. and i've yt to see more of them. on wed, i shall explore more during the jam and hop. and im gona see who's gona win the title this yr. SHL, pls do your best people!

2010-04-09T05:22:00.000+08:00

there will come a time that when you need a shoulder to cry on, ears to listen to you. these will be the time that you would feel like you want to let out anyth, or even everyth that had been bottling up in your heart. it is as if, your heart yearns for someone to listen to it. it's as if the heart cant bear the pain anymore and just feels like bursting out. at that point of time, you rly will feel like shit. be it abt friends, families, work, sch or anyth else; no one will ever escape frm problems. the only thing to qn is, are they able to solve it rationally or irrationally?

and when one tends to be in the sticky situation, some will try to run away frm it while others, just tend to stand there doing nth, just trying to figure out what the outcome might be. i guess, being able to solve a problem is nt an easy task as it takes a lot of hard work. sometimes, advices are necessary in some cases as they help to lighten the burden of a person and that it gets a person to think rationally. yeah, but some would just say that it is easier said than done. true, it is easier said than done. bt it's worth a try, heeding the advices given.

i think what im trying to say here is that being a human, there's alwys ups and downs in our loves and that no one cn run away frm them as Allah will alwys be watching His ppl and that they are nvr out of His sight. so rmbr ppl, no matter what you do, alwys rmbr that Allah will alwys be right by your side. though it cn take quite some time for your prayers to be answered, that does nt mean He does nt hear you. it is just a matter of time and He just wants to test your patience. only He knws the strength of each of His ppl and that He would nvr test them beyond their own strengths. so maybe smth for you ppl to ponder upon.

wow, i feel like an ustazah today. im in a mood of motivational talks. no idea why, bt somehw i hope you ppl will just read it anw. adios(:

2010-04-08T03:09:00.000+08:00

I FEEL LIKE SHIT.

SERIOUSLY, EVERYTH SEEMS SO FUCKING BULLSHIT.

2010-04-03T11:08:00.000+08:00

HI, MY NAME IS RAAAA-YAAAA.

since it's so difficult for some ppl to pronounce my name, i shall introduce myself as that frm nw on. HAHA. since i've been called that way at workplace. i shall stick to it thn. you cn call me raaaaaa, you cn call me yaaaaa :D

kay bye.

2010-03-27T08:48:00.000+08:00

move on and nvr look back.

2010-03-25T10:58:00.000+08:00

aft 2 yrs of arwah atok's departure, and ytd you follow suit. Allah has called you to join him. it was indeed a heartbreaking and shocking news for me. it kept me trembling for the rest of the day. when i saw your face and kissed your forehead, tears rolled down the cheek uncontrollably. bt somehow the trembling subsided aft kissing you. seeing pa and ibu ani sob even more, it did made the atmosphere worse. we didnt get to be by your side when you were breathing your last. that was the worse part. bt i was glad to be able to recite the yasin for you. at least, some of our prayers will stay with you.

and as for today, aft you were cleaned and wrapped up.. seeing everyone cried so much made me sob even more. the moment i kissed your forehead and scattered the pacai, i couldnt help bt to just cry and cry. it was indeed a vry down moment for our whole family. and so the last farewell was bid when you were safely covered with the earth. may Allah bless your soul and rest in peace nenek. im gona miss you.

to romo, omolong, ibu ani, ibu ana, papa and tante; be patient and stay strong you guys. it's alr her time and we have to let her go. and for the rest of my cousins, stay strong too.

2010-03-23T02:25:00.000+08:00

WTF? such adverts on the street? hell, it'll be total chaos if it were to be done in s'pore.

2010-03-18T13:35:00.000+08:00

i assume that you're alr feeling too fucked up till you are telling my dad to teach his family more morals. well pls, you're the one who had alwys been acting holy and lovable infrnt of others while with your own family members and relatives, you show your shitty attitude. what kind of a person are you? well, frm what i knw a religious person wont be cursing your own brother and sister and bitching behind others. mann, you and your family are rly great at doing these kind of things.

yo bitch, if i were to nt have any morals in me, i would have nvr showed you any respect when i meet you. because of that little respect that i still have for you, i still care to kiss your hand. that is what my parents had been teaching me. you think they didnt teach me enough? well you're fcuking wrong eh bitch. i think you're the one who should teach your own family some manners. especially that fatty. try to look at others' face when shaking hand. show some respect for others la if you want to gain that little respect frm them. dont act all lovey dovey with outsiders bt being so bitchy with your own relatives. right, i dont wana say much. so here's a little smth for you..

suck that bitch (:

2010-03-17T23:48:00.000+08:00

oh yes, to my lovely and most wonderful social studies teacher..

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU MS SHARIFAH!
or should i say, mdm sharifah nw.. well, i rly hope that you'll have a great wedding and that you will last till eternity with your beloved husband. you looked rly rly gorgeous on your wedding day. may Allah bless you and your family alwys. love you mdm sharifah! (:

2010-03-16T10:54:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

2010-03-12T04:03:00.000+08:00

he's freaking hot

and dear john was okay. it's sweet yt nt that sad except for the part where he was talking to his dad. other parts, nt rly that great. i still prefer the book the best. the bk's storyline is much sweeter and ofcourse totally sad till it cn make you cry.

2010-03-11T12:31:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhh~ hot guy for the day(:

2010-03-10T13:18:00.000+08:00

Nadiku - Sabhi Saddi

nvr take anyone for granted as you may nvr knw when that person will disappear frm your life. especially those who love you dearly. cherish them and nvr let them go. two-timing is bad in a relationship. think twice before doing it, as the ones who loves you the most may just be the ones that you let go for someone that does nt even knw the meaning of love. so it's better to regret earlier thn to regret later. no point regretting when evryth's gone. you'll nvr get it bck.

2010-03-09T10:18:00.000+08:00

to dearest honey, syafiqah bte parok,

A VERY VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! may Allah bless you alwys and hope that you've had a wonderful birthday today.

you've been a great friend since i first met you in rp and it seemed like you were the first best friend i found in rp. im very thankful to Allah for giving me such a wonderful friend. thanks for all the help that you had given to me and i promise i shall cherish the memories between us. no matter what, you've been a part of me and that i will rmbr you alwys babe. so yeah, happy 20th eh datin! stay young foreverrrrrrr.. tpi 20 siol! tue la you!! haha.

anw, sedap sey makan kt SIOL garden tadi. perot bole burst anytime! haha.

2010-03-04T05:36:00.000+08:00

hey. im bck and right nw i pretty much feel kind of down. i dnknw why maybe it's because of the family or maybe just because of smth else. mann, life's nvr predictable and that everyone has to go through different situations everyday. i guess im one of them who has to go through an unlucky day at the wrong time.

anyhowwwww, i've finally collected my work uniform and im gona start soon. so jia you for me! and i hope that i cn do the job perfectly well. i shall remind myself to alwys smile and nt frown at others. HAHA! and thankfully i gt placed at children's section and the place seem awesome. i hope it'll be a gd thing to be placed there. and so, sooooooooon i'll have some money to spend on myself. yessssssaaaaa! so guys pardon me if i were to nt update this blog of mine regularly as i seem to be more busy nowadays and no time will be spared for blogging or anyth else. so adios to you ppl and i'll see you guys when i see you :D

and to rifah syg, im definitely glad that you enjoyed the video. that's my hard work that i put in it to make it just for you. so just keep it and make it a memory that was made by me. love you babe.

the moon is nvr bigger thn your thumb, rmbr that (:

(random eh, random)

2010-03-02T15:26:00.000+08:00

to dearest NUR RIFAH BTE SUKAR,

A VERY VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

i rly hope that you will have a great bday and i hope that you'll enjoy the video that i gave you (:

i love you minah!

2010-02-27T12:22:00.000+08:00

yo! managed to upgrade my laptop to windows 7. the system is okay la, nt that much diff compared to windows vista. anyhow, had to wait for like what? 3 or 4 hrs like that in sch. and so, aft having our lunch we headed down to the library to play Nintendo Wii since me and honey had nth better to do. haha, we played like mad ppl. even in the aircon room i was sweating like hell.

seriously, this Wii thingy is so gd for exercising man. i wana buy ah so that i cn shed more fats fast. nyahahaha. and so here i am playing arnd to explore more on the new windows 7. i seriously frgt to move all of my sister's pictures and finally they are all gone during the configuration. OOPSIE! sry ah, i was in a hurry man, so dont blame me dude, i told you to clear off your pictures earlier :D

and i rly am vry happy as i gt the job! yessssssssaaaaa, i'll be starting soon and i dont have to worry so much abt the financial crisis. so work, here i come! may it be a plaesant experience for me ^^. and im going to bed early today as there'll be HSBC women's champions tmrw. i have to get out of hse by 6 am! mcm siak btol uh. tanah merah country club, knape la kau jaoh sgt oiiiii??!! :D kay chiaossssssss ppl!

2010-02-25T13:18:00.000+08:00

oh hello all. seriously, this wk had been a hectic wk. i've been busy all wk. mon went for job hunting and thn off to HSBC women's championship briefing. thn nxt day was supposed to look aft the hse as mum has started work and no one was able to fetch zul. what to do? im nt frm a well to do family who cn afford a maid. i also have to work in order to help my family nw. just nw, went for second interview for work. man, nxt i have to go to sch to configure laptop to windows 7. and thn sat and sun will be filled with activities for the HSBC women's championship. fuuuuh, hw hectic.

i even do nt have time to meet up with my other friends. vry sry guys, for nw i rly am very busy. i hope you guys undstnd. and to rifah, rly rly sry for nt helping you with the stuff. nxt time i will help okay babe <3 okay so right nw im rly praying hard so that i cn get the job. dear Allah, pls help me. i wana help my family. and im off, chiaooosssss.

to all my friends, i love you guys no matter what okay

2010-02-22T13:45:00.000+08:00

hello people! right nw, my body is rly aching to the max. the reason being is that i had been cycling with BK at eastcoast park ytd. oh man, the pain is rly excruciating i tell you. muscle cramps all over. alamak, rly making me feel so lethargic. oh well, i still had loads of fun with BK.

went for aidah's bday bbq and celebrated her advanced birthday celebration. earlier, BK had alr bought 18 random things for her which included stuffs like toilet brush (haha!), toothbrush, sanitary pad, colgate, hanger and many more. ofcourse included a proper present which was a clock. sadly honey didnt get to join on that day.

the part where we rode the bikes, alamak.. tkleh angssss la. seriously it had been quite sometime since i've rode the bike. imagine cycling frm area C to area F and thn bck to area C. by the time we reached area F, my legs were alr aching like hell. i rly need a treatment frm the massaging ctr man. over all, we had fun. next, Dear John eh krg (Y). cnt wait yo! pictures wise, i'll upload them soon. rahmat and nadiah, picture pictures!

takecare people. chiaoossss.

2010-02-17T14:13:00.000+08:00

CROWS ZERO. i swear you guys have to watch this movie. it's one serious shit i tell you. the movie is awesome and i love all the action pack in it. though it'll be some sort of gruesome for some as they involve a lot of fighting (which actually was vry disturbing for me XD), bt still it's a vry gd show. imagine uh ppl hitting you in the face body and everywhere else. and some even died frm being hit. scary much.

the movie is actually abt young boys in boys sch where they only knw hw to fight and learn nth else. actually i dont even knw why the hell they even go to sch in the first place. they dont seem to have any teachers to guide them. dumb much i guess. bt they are great fighters man. they fight like real men. seriously. they fight with their bare hands and feet and they do nt use any other weapons unless desperate. which reminds me of smth. well, nvm thn. and of course there are some heart throbs in the movie. ahhhhhhhhhhhh~ nvr fail to spot them. nyahahaha. bt hell yeah their sch is vry scary as each student are supposed to follow a certain clan. thn they will have to fight among the clans in the sch and the bigger fights will hppn btwn the sch and other schools. fuuuuuuh, when you see them fight.. awesome uh i telll you.

oh yeah, cousin bought some gifts frm Melaka. vry vry pretty indeed. thanks eh huda for the gifts! syg jgk kau kt aku :D

2010-02-16T06:29:00.000+08:00

to dearest, bacen sister, NUR SHAZWANI BTE MASHORI
A VERY VERY HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY!

& nw you're alr 15. hw time rly flies. it seems like just ytd that you were crawling all over the hse with only your pampers on. HAHA! anw, i just wana wish you a very happy bday. hopefully what we have done today was gd enough. though no proper celebration was done, bt i think it's sufficient for our family. you knw, i've known you since you were born and indeed you are a great sister. im very grateful to have been given a fcuking irritating, bacen yt a lovable sister. i knw we've been through so much all these while. with the families and so on. you've been strong. you've alwys been the person that i would share my problems and stories with. you've been the one to hear me out though sometimes i knw you dont want to. dont think i dnknw ah. bt still every little things that you've done for me means the world to me.

i knw i havent been a rly gd sister to you as you knw i have problems with my anger management and that i may have thrown my anger at you for so many times & for so many stupid reasons. i am sry indeed and that deep down inside i rly dont mean to do that to you. bt still it feels gd at times to throw anger at you. HAHA. mcm rase awesome gitu mrh kau slalu. nyahahah. okay so i may nt have any presents for you, tk mcm mataer kau. siang2 da kasi hadiah. INSYA ALLAH, rmbr eh. Insya Allah i will buy for you smth in the future. skrg tgh kering so tunggu jer la eh. no promises bt MAYBE i shall buy smth. no matter what hppns, i will alwys love you okay. rmbr that. once again HAPPY BDAY! & HAPPY TOTAL DEFENCE DAY!

2010-02-15T06:17:00.000+08:00

oh hello everyone. firstly, happy chinese new year to all chinese celebrating it. 2ndly, happy valentine's day to those celebrating it too. also, happy 18th bday to jessica!

well today, as expected i'll be sitting and rotting at home. there's nth much that i cn do at hme. and it's so fcuking boring which is rly getting on my nerves. oh anw, like what i've said earlier, i had gone to masjid Ar-Raudhah for a seminar on Love in Islam. i went there with honey and aainaa. we followed the Darul Makmur srudents there. the seminar was very very motivational and made me think twice of being in love. such a heartwarming session and both the speakers were awesome. they talked abt things that gt me pondering for quite some time. you knw, true love in Islam means to love someone for their religion and nt for their face or body or anyth. and totally love is nt sex 24/7. it's sick and stupid if someone were to think that love = sex.

so aft the seminar, solat for awhile and then off we went to town. we were bored so walked arnd and saw clothes that were on sale. lucky aainaa coz her salary was in. jealous! shopping sey aainaa. hahahah. oh well, i still had fun with honey, aainaa and a new friend, munirah. thanks guys for ytd. and nw, i want to kill this boredom by watching more videos. the shows on television seriously suck.

2010-02-13T12:21:00.000+08:00

oh it's been so long and some have been pestering me to update. i'd like to make an announcement pls. *ahem ahem* and i hereby announce that finally UT is over! such a relieve i must say. aft all the muggings and late nights. i've finally gt myself a whole wk treat to slp (Y)

seriously, this wk had been a dreadful wk. with my fever on and off and temperature had nt been consistent. headache, i dont have to mention it. the whole wk felt like i was carrying a 5kg rock on my head. it was rly rly difficult to concentrate. bt overall, i managed to go through UT and thankgod i'd still survive till today ^^. all the papers were manageable except! for maths of course. i dnknw what will hppn to that paper. i rly hope to get at least a D+. tu pn da cukop la. as usual didnt complete that paper. i dnknw why i cn nvr succeed in maths. vry vry irritating. whatever la. aft this, if i were to pass everyth, INCLUDING MATHS.. i shall nt have to retake any modules! yessss! no more maths plssssssssss!

holidays are just coming over and im so gona rest like hell. tmrw going for a talk and i smhw am kinda excited for this talk at masjid Ar-Raudhah. cnt wait ^^ toodles people.

an imperfect creation by God yt brings joy to the family (:

2010-02-08T14:05:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ been mugging for entrepreneurship. how torturous. so aft mugging thought that i could release some of my pressure and blog. seriously i mugged till i realised i was running a temperature. 38 deg, and it increased aft i showered. felt pathetically weak. my head was spinning and my throat was burning. oh my. i dont wana fall sick. nt with UT just in a few more hrs time. i wana do well. im nt gona screw it again. i want to be promoted and not repeat those modules!

well aft this ut, im definitely going to get my awesome rest that is before i start my work. i shall get rid of the pressure that im facing. cuti 2 bulan babe! im so gona rest like hell. nyahahaha

HOTSTUFF!
& rumours has it that he’s gt a crush on tabitha?!
fuck much? yeah i think so too

2010-02-06T11:46:00.000+08:00

it's alr the end of the wk. and sad enough, it's the last wk that e36e will be together as a class. sigh.. nxt wk, it'll be UT3 in separate classes.

this wk, 3 days straight had been having fast food. facis for maths, web and new media and cog had been kind enough to treat to us fast foods. wed was KFC. yummy yummy. thurs was canadian pizza and today, just nw was macdonalds. awesome uh, im gona grow fatter man. cnt believe tht we're separating. nxt sem, we'll be in diff classes and i rly hope that we cn still keep in touch. i'll definitely miss e36e. BK especially (:

bt still, BK will still be having fun. we're gona have a lot of activities this hols ^^. cnt wait!

2010-02-02T13:08:00.000+08:00

super mendak monday i must say. like what i had said previously, monday is such a dreadful day. with the malays enjoying themselves at wild wild wet. me and honey were the only 2 surviving malays in ms J's class. awesome or what. malay power uh. ciner cm aper jer, nk step menguasai class or what XD. cmpleted our tasks and aft that revised cog with honey and thn went hme.

though the malays were nt arnd, we still did okay. oh and some unfortunate things hppned in sch. shouldnt elaborate much abt it. whole sch kecoh giler maot.

oh anw, i still rmbr the moment where i was laughing like hell, like my stomach could burst anytime. honey made me laughed so hard. omg. i even laughed until i dropped to the floor when we were in the lift. naseb baek tkde org npk. seriously that was the part that made my day. hahahaha. mcm kene kejar dgn serial killer siol. SAW 6 PER FEEQAH? hahahah

2010-02-01T11:51:00.000+08:00

oh well hello everyone (:

it's so gd to be sitting at hme on a sunday. though i dont feel like i've rested well, atleast im nt too tired to go to sch tmrw. i rly dread to go to sch on a mon as it'll be marketing module. seeing ms J's face cn make me sick in the stomach. hw dreadful. bt still, tmrw's the last day to see her fcuking face! awesome! aft that sayonara to you ms J!

anw, BK planned to go wild wild wet tmrw. they're all planning of skipping marketing. too bad i cnt go as i've gt other plans aft sch. vry sry you guys. i hpe you guys will have a great time there(: i cn guarantee the class will be so quiet tmrw, cause there'll only be chinese ppl present + honey, syahir and me. the rest, hooray hooray uh.

i think that'll be all for today. i wana go watch more videos. chaosss..

i love Jung Yong Hwa :D

2010-01-28T14:50:00.000+08:00

SUMPAH DIER HOT GILER BABI :D

2010-01-28T09:43:00.000+08:00

BK ♥

entrepreneurship trade show was okay i guess. our grp did a gd job indeed. wore formal clothes again and i swear i was sweating all the way though the place was air-conditioned. we prepared our proposal and decorated the booth. though we didnt go all out in doing that booth, we still felt some satisfaction. had to suffer for quite sometime during the trade show as i had to chnge shoes with honey. i wore her heels and she wore my pumps. fuuuuuh, best sgt dpt blisters byk2. hahaha.

oh & carlos rios came to our booth to evaluate us. tk menang! none of our classmates were the top 4. danggg.. oh well, like what joseph chan had said, "it's nt abt winning, bt it's abt the participation." awesome ^^ im nt disappointed, bt i felt like it was a gd experience for us.

currently, i kinda feel like i miss seeing mas wan :D ; my 5 yrs crush ^^

2010-01-25T12:36:00.000+08:00

yes, it's aching rly badly right nw. i dnknw what else cn make the pain go away. you? i dont think so. oh pls, it's so hurting that i cn bearly take the image of you out of my head.

do you even notice hw im hurting here? hw im trying my best to keep my feelings frm you? i'd rly want to say those words to you bt i just feel that it's nt gona be appropriate for you. i dont want you to be hurt by my words. do you even knw hw much i loved you? i doubt so. coz for all i knw, you've gt someone else too by your side. i rly am trying my best to nt sound so petty or jealous or whatnot. im just trying to tell you hw im feeling right nw. it's too bad that you dont even notice the sadness, the frustration that im going through right nw. all these while i had been faking a smile. i've been covering all the things bottled inside with the fake smile that you see when you meet me. you've been the person whom i've alwys counted on, the person whom i would lend my ears to and also pour out my feelings to. bt i think that was just in the past right.

you would alwys come to me when you were ditched by the rest and i would be patiently listening to you, lending my shoulder and ears. somehw i felt like i was impt coz you came to me to share your probs. bt soon, i realised that you would only do so when you're being played by them. sigh.. seriously, im rly hurting inside. this pain, it wouldnt want to go away. like someone had said to me, i am a vry patient person bt when my patience has been tested to the limits, i will definitely blow up. you'll see the other side of me. mann, im sure you're nt gona like it. so you'd better nt step on my head while im gd. i'll stay patient while i still cn. bt just trust me, demi Allah, i've nvr once regretted knowing you. i rly hope the situation could be better. Amin.

seriously, i need a shoulder to cry on right nw. and i rly mean a shoulder. i wana cry all my heart out so that i would feel better. i feel so miserable bottling it up inside. shit. i rly hate to be like this.

2010-01-22T06:59:00.000+08:00

i love this minah :D. she keeps me laughing my ass off for one whole day. she makes my day. and so does nadiah, aainaa and hanisah. i love you guys. these few days had been hectic. with all kind of things hppening. bt i dont care. they still make my day + my awesome classmates. i love them all.

2010-01-20T14:13:00.000+08:00

to nenek ku, NUR BAZILAH BT MUSTAPHA, i just wana wish you..

HAPPY BDAY NENEK!

it's been arnd 12 yrs we've been bestfriends and it is still counting.. even our parents met before we were born. fated to be friends la huh. & yes, we've gone through much i guess. since pri 1 you were alwys there for me. we joked, we laughed, we sulked, anyth we went through together.. i guess. i cn still rmbr those times in my head. still vry vivid, like a tape recorder just keeps on repeating itself. you knw, i cn still rmbr that kekek picture of me and you. alahai, i was like a midget and you, a darn tall girl standing beside me. hahah!

i rly hope that we cn stay close forever. no matter what, you'll alwys be my bestfriend nenek. though i didnt celebrate your bday today, i still have smth for you. make sure to meet up soon and i'll give you a surprise thn. aku bwk 18 balloons as promised. one by one aku letopkn dpn muker kau nnt :D you've been a great friend babe. thank god for making you one of my friends. i love you nenek.

much loves,
shahiira, moyang

2010-01-19T12:45:00.000+08:00

haish. the hse feels so awfully quiet and also i feel lonely. it's nt that im living alone bt our family is nt complete. we are left with papa, mama, me and zul. abg has gone bck to his camp and shazz is away for her sec 3 camp. alahai, sunyi sepi la rumah ni. zul, keep kakak entertained alwys eh (:
haiya, i have to slp alone in my room. shazz tkde laaaaaaa~! bt yes, aku conquer laptop ah sia!

as usual, marketing was a bitch. was nt that into the module today. had DSLM briefing and was told that our core modules would be known by tmrw. and i freaking scared that i'll get irrelevant modules. pls ah, i want the rest to have the same modules as mine. let's pray hard i'll get the best. and! UT3 is coming pretty soon. damn it. marketing UT2: suspect bsar C. fuck you.

just nw, otw hme.. honey and i were coupling ppl up and see hw their future children would look like.. haha! kekek nk mampos siak. you knw i knw eh honey. i shan't say it here la coz it's nt appropriate for some. hahahaha! no la. just kidding. dont wana share coz vry embarrassing :D
oh man, need to go touch up on my marketing plans. chaos for nw.

2010-01-18T08:47:00.000+08:00

i dnknw why this small little thing would rly just piss me off. wana knw what? just being pressurised by others. seriously, if anyone did that to me, wow rly gets me fucked up for quite sometime. so ppl, be warned. if you get me on my nerves by pressurising me.. that's it ah, watch your bck. seriously, i dont like being pressurised. i dont even knw why.

you knw, when at times when my mum would pressurise me to get ready quickly and get done quick with my make up and all.. even though it's a small matter, i'll start to shout and get mad instantly. i'll start swearing to myself though i knw i'll definitely regret it afterwards. and when someone tries to call you repeatedly and thn when you pick up and just to hear "are you here yt?" though it is still early.. mann, seriously gets my blood boiling at high temperature. i dnknw why, bt am i a temperamental person or whaaat? i tend to nt control my temper when it comes to pressurising moments. paling fav eh, when im in grps with ppl who do nt knw hw to be patient when it comes to grp works. tu muker mintak ke lempar dgn kerusi. seriously sia. rly gets on my nerves. i just feel like showing off the middle finger and shout 'fuck you' at that person's face.

shall have to learn more on hw to cntrol my anger thn. i dont wana make this as a habit. oh plsssss.. ppl, help me cntrol this anger. it's so sickening to have to alwys to get mad for nth. i cn go crazy soon man.

2010-01-16T05:21:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhh~ i've gt the whole day today to rest at hme. wonderful indeed. sch's been okay exept for marketing. rly cnt stand that module, or to be more precise, I CNT STAND THE FACI. nbccb. bt whatever there's still like 4 more wks and it'll be over. bt thn, i'll miss e36e ):

these few wks had been great as i feel like our bond is getting stronger. we're much closer as the days go by. i just love them. im having a great time with my class and it'll bbe vry sad that we have to be separated soon. mann, hw i wish we dont have to change classes. bt what to do? i guess we'll just have to stay in touch thru any ways.

seriously, i'll definitely miss this class of mine ):

2010-01-14T15:03:00.000+08:00

today's lesson was okay. maths.. what do you expect? bt i think im kind of enjoying maths better nw. i think im loving differentiation and integration nw. nw only.. hahhahah

okay so aft that, went straight to meet up with minah. her sis was away for sec 3 camp, so i sincerely offered myself to accompany her at her hme and also that i wnted to try curled my hair. so yeah, we slacked for awhile and thn i started with my hair. while doing so, we listened to music and also camwhore ah! aper lgi.. hahahaha. the pictures are so classic and kekek. tk bleh angssssssss laaaaaa! it felt gd to spend some time with her alone. miss those old times you knw. i had a lot of fun coz basically we were just laughing our ass out today. best ah rifah, laen kali buat lgi eh! the pictures, just see la eh. some are just too kekek ^^ thanks minah for today!

2010-01-13T05:46:00.000+08:00

today is like a great day for me. entrepreneurship has alwys been my fav module man. okay anw, classmates and i went to pasar mlm for lunch. they bought durian and shared among themselves. hahaha, satu class bau durian siak.

oh oh, there's this one moment during ppt where we talked abt love. here's our grp's own definitions of love..

Syafiqah: "Love is a four letter word. it is easy to be said, bt difficult to be shown."
Shahiira: "Love is when a person is willing to stand by you no matter what. To cherish and care for you all his live."
Helmi: "Love is sex 24/7." (wth?)
Nadia: "take out the L frm the frnt and thn add an R at the back."

2010-01-12T06:35:00.000+08:00

it was a vry spine chilling moment while waiting for the o lvls results. classmates kept reminding me of the time and all. they keep going arnd me and updating me of the time. hahaha, thanks sgt2 krg eh. bt they are great classmates, they kept giving me motivations and all. except for 2! syahir and khairi. keep cursing me to get F9. basket eh krg. hahahah. my classmates even asked for my laptop to check the results for me. it's like they are taking the results, they're so impatient. hahah

bt sadly, i gt the same results la. bt i think it doesnt matter la. since im in poly alr, i think i'll be safe for the moment. compared to others who are still nt in poly. okay so, i just wana wish those who had passed their o lvls, congratulations you guys! and to those who may nt have reached your goal, dont give up, there's still room for improvements. you guys cn do better! jia you! (:

im happy because at least i did nt drop to e8 or f9. thank god for that. & thanks to all who had wished me before the results. i love you guys!

2010-01-10T14:13:00.000+08:00

someone has been complaining that i have nt been updating my blog eh.. haha

okay so, past few days had been very busy for me. UTs, RP’s open hse and stuffs. okay so I think web and new media’s UT was some sort alright. bt for maths! haiya, standard la huh for me. always CMI. seriously, it was sooooo nt manageable. sigh.. i dnknw hw im gona fair for that maths UT. UT 3 must work harder. must must.

alright! enough of that. nw’s abt rp’s open hse. me and classmates decided to join the rp open hse together and so we signed up. we went for fri and sat’s duties. sadly we were separated la. smhw, i was under the csm booths and the rest, ushers or smth? ah yar, smth like that. anw, rp’s open hse was nt that exciting nor was it boring though. there were performaces by rp’s dancing grps and all. oh and alsoperformaces by the 2 rp’s representatives for s’pore idols; tabitha and farhan shah. so yeah, yada yada.. i had to look aft the magic booth or smth. so tricks with poker cards which actually needed maths for it to work. yeah, that was all abt it for my duty. the rest had to walk arnd sch for nth. and also, there was this flash mob on the 2nd day of open hse. the canteen was blasted with music and ppl dancing were seen everywhere in the cnteen. basically those who were involved danced. bt it looked fun bt smhw, the dance was sort of short and nt that exciting. what made the scene interesting was the sight of MR J (krg yg ader tau la eh :D) dancing stiffly to the rythm. haha! kekek siak tu anak.

bt throughout the 2 days, it was pretty fun being arnd those ppl. we walked arnd sch countless of times and at the same time, aimlessly going arnd. we talked, we joked, we laughed and did many stuff with each other. i love them. i made many friends too. being in these kind of events is sooo awesome. oh mann, im dead beat. on the 3rd day of open hse, honey even suggested of going to TP for the jam and hop thingy. rifah and insyirah also suggested of going. i wnted to, bt it was 50-50 for me. 50 wnted to go, bt 50 didnt want to go because of that stupid biskot thing. and + the fact that i was fcuking dead beat, so yeah there was my ans. absolute no. pnat siol. nk pegi tampines lgi. tk sanggop siol. so later on, im so gona have my beauty sleep as im gona have to tutor cousin tmrw.

there's only these few photos on my camera. the rest should be with nadia and rahmat. cpt2 la upload eh.

PEACE OUT! (:

2010-01-07T07:03:00.000+08:00

aaarrrggghhh~! gory, cut arms, cut stomach, bloody kidney, bloody brain juice, screws to the brain.. mann, fcuking gory and gruesome. it's still all so fresh in my head. my class watched saw 6 today and it was utterly gory. i rly hated the sight of those things. and till nw, i just cnt help bt to feel nauseous. urgh, mann i rly hate these kind of movie, with blood and all gory stuff.

our class was quite slacked today and that my maths was bearly untouchable. literally i mean. and tmrw's maths ut. kimakkk, satu bende pn tk masok sak. infinite, differentiation, integration.. aper kejadah lgi la. stress stress.

go hme I must;

solat

eat (very impt!)

revise on maths stuff

touch on smth

nt watch any tv

do smth to release my stress

sleep! :D

2010-01-05T14:44:00.000+08:00

well yeah, first day of sch was nt that awesome la for me. i was fcuking excited at first as i thot that i would be having cognitive module today and that i get to see ms rita roop's face. oh bt noooo.. that fcuking marketing module faci's face had to spoil my darn day. she rly has a face that is possible to be hated by many. i rly, truly loathe the sight of her. she does gets on ones nerves at times. and also i was nt in the same grp as feeqah. lgi saket hati sia. i just cnt wait for 4 more lessons of marketing and then sayonara to you marketing faci!

okay enough of that. anw, i just realised that classmates of sem 1 & 2 had been calling me hips dont lie. i wonder why eh. pelik jgk. hahah. i wonder hw it would be when i promote to yr 2. will that name stick with me throughout my poly life or whaat? mann, in abt 4wks+ time it would be long hols and that aft that i'll be in yr 2 alr. excited man. bt first, there's still UT to be worried abt. maths aku pening la sia! tmrw's web and new media. pray hard that the test will be a breeze. Amin.

2010-01-04T13:43:00.000+08:00

Saturday, o2 jan

went out with family to spend some quality time together and coincidentally kak yana was free to join us. so we went on to walk arnd bugis first while waiting for kak yana. thn had some murtabak at Zam Zam together. aft that, with nowhere else to go, we headed down to somerset and just walked to orchard. we had fun together. it's gd that kak yana gt to go out with us. it's gd to get her laugh with us. i hope you'll be okay kak.

Friday, o1 jan

on new yr itself, went out with biess. the ben & jerry's ice-cream was superbly awesome. i love it. ofcourse la kn, $42.25 ice-cream babe. it's been sometime since we 4 went out together. i did enjoyed myself biess. and oh, i gt a new name eh, AYU. hahah

2010-01-02T14:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

fuuuuuuuuh! countdown was a blast for me as i gt the chance to join in the crowd, which was nt rly that far frm my hme ^^. mcm finally gitu. and the awesome part was TAUFIK BATISAH WAS THERE. AWESOME SGT2. though i didn’t get the chance to take a picture with him, i was satisfied that i could look at his face during his performances. ONE HOT DUDE MAN. he just nvr fails to melt my heart whenever he appears infront of me. the crowd went crazy when he came.

i went with bazilah and at the beginning of the show the field was nt that full. when it was like 11, ppl started coming in. bazilah and i moved frm the bck of the crowd and all the way to the frnt. haha! nk tgk taufik pny psl. selit pny selit sia baz. oh oh, right aft taufik performed, bazilah and i ran to the bck to see taufik walk out. i just realised that i ran faster aft i ate the tiger biscuit. true true. don’t believe me? ask bazilah. and as you have guessed, a huge grp of fans ran before us and ran straight to taufik! and yeah i didn’t get to take a picture with him. sighhh.. bt atleast, i gt a picture with didi cazly. hw lucky. he was so fcuking polite and so kind. he even asked his security guard to let him have 5 mins and took pictures with the fans. his kindness is so attractive man. ahhhhhhhh~ hahah!

and i still cnt believe it is alr 2010! time flies rly fast man. im gona have make sure that i wont be wasting so much time on unnecessary things in 2010. Amin.

2009-12-31T06:44:00.000+08:00

abg yan was generous enough to treat our whole family to a scrumptous meal. hajah maimunah was the place where we chilled and spent some quality time together. we had a gd time together. thanks abg yan for the treat. bt sadly nt all of our family were there. kak yana had to work, qammarul's in camp and dad had to work. when will our family be together again? sighhhh.. okay, here are the pictures. im nt in a mood to post properly today.

2009-12-29T11:41:00.000+08:00

woohooooooooo! finally the third idol has been announced. SEZAIRI SEZALI MENANG! yayyyy! congrats to you sezairi. sis and me cnt stop yelling like mad and jumped arnd like berok aft the results was announced. happy dok. feeqah and nadiah tk happy coz they think it's somewhat racist. no no, he won coz he's gd okay ^^

will it alwys end with a separation?

2009-12-27T13:34:00.000+08:00

mcm finally gitu i get to see my 2nd sis and niece. it's been quite awhile since we saw each other. like my family, she was having quite a rough time too. so she was forced by mama to come and sought help frm mama.

okay so we slacked arnd at hme until it was 6 and went out. kakak went to watch movie with her daughter and us went to expo. for what? aper lgi.. TGK TAUFIK BATISAH AH! seriously, excited dok. it has been like arnd 2 or 3 yrs since i saw him live. mak kau, biler aku npk dier jer.. i just started to melt, melt and melt! he was so fcuking hot! just cnt get enough of him man. when he sang, alamak.. his voice was soooo mesmerising.. all i cn do was just to sing along with him and my eyes were all glued to his face. nvr ever did my eyes turned away frm him. this will hppn everytime i see taufik. maklom la, gilerkn taufik katerkn (heheheheh!).

oh oh and i rmbered him saying this when a makcik asked him what does he look for in a girl.. alamak, he answered in a sexy tone, "actually rupe tkla penting sgt, tapi yg penting dier kene manis". haiyo.. i like it when he talks in a sexy tone. super super SEXAYYYYY! kay la, enough eh. i sound so fanatic :D. expo had alot of sales man. it made me go crazy seeing many stuff going on sale. metro sale la, sports apparels sale la.. haiya, if only i had the money to go for a shopping spree.. how wonderful my life would be. oh well, i have to wait for i dnknw? many more days, mths or even yrs maybe to get a hell lot of money for me to spend. and there are some pictures too. i tried my vry best to make taufik's pictures as clear as possible. bt as you all knw, my camera is nt of a gd quality. so sry for the poor quality pictures :(

many said that she has my looks.

mum and sis keep saying that im of the same size as them.. too bad, im taller.

ahhhh~ HOTSTUFF

there's a video that i recorded when taufik was singing 'Usah Lepaskan'. so mesmerising until i cnt get the song out of my head till nw. that's hw powerful taufik batisah's influence is to me. chey chey. oh well, i'll try upload it other times. cair babe!

2009-12-25T10:36:00.000+08:00

mak aiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.. my body is all cramped up due to all the walking that was done ytd. mannn, it feels so torturous to walk long distances ytd. and today all i cn do is to sit and lay arnd at hme as i cnt do much of walking because of the muscle cramps. saket giler oiiiii.

ni sumer drg peh psl kasi aku maen air. thanks eh krg.. thnks sgt2. hahah. i had fun ytd, went to sentosa for a picnic with anak2 melayu e36e. i had fun. me and feeqah changed. (BUT!) we were nt thinking of playing inside the water as we did nt bring any extra undergarments. right aft we chnged, wahh.. the girls eh.. giggle giggle and thn carried me to sea. baek krg. feeqah was also nt spared. she was pushed to the sea too. sedeh sia. feeqah and me went bck with (ehem ehem), half dried bra and undies. hahahahha. bt at one point when they threw me into the sea, aku panic seketike siak. hahaha. flashbck of me drowning when i was young (zaaaaappp) suddenly came to my mind. panic dok. i was so afraid i couldnt get up. naseb la baek air tk dlm :D. oh well, i still had fun when i was with them. thanks krg for the picnic.

and thn i headed off frm sentosa to east coast park. imagine ah sia, brape jaoh nk pegi sane. aku sanggop sia pegi sane demi kwn2 ku. baek ah din for choosing pit yg jaoh2. at first took the train frm harbourfrnt thn to dhoby ghaut thn to city hall and thn to eunos. thn frm eunos i walked to diff bus stops just to find the right bus. kimak, by thn i was alr darn exhausted. thn the thought of having to walk further at east coast made me feel like going hme. bt still i persevered (sanggop siol). and i made it. had some fun with the games that SM organised. teamed with aniq and aziz. they were quite enthu though. in the end we came in third and gt oursleves packet full of toblerone and gold coins (haha!). oh oh, and the cake that was prepared for SM looked superbly amazing. nas' mum made it and looked sooooo mouth-watering dude. SM had diff roles in the team kn, we girls also had our part.. CHEERLEADERS BABE! ^^ dpt jgk potong cake. honoured honoured. so yeah, aft that i just could nt take the pain that was soooo unbearable and i went off.

and here are some of the pictures for the day (:

i try to fake a smile even though it hurts so much deep inside (sighhhh..)

2009-12-23T10:50:00.000+08:00

im excited for tmrw's picnic with anak2 melayu e36e ^^. bt somehow i've gt this feeling that im nt rly looking forward for SM's bbq. no offence, bt dont ask me why. whatever, i'll still go since they have invited.

sighhhhhhhhh..

2009-12-23T08:32:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhh~ what an awesome day today. resting at hme during a cold weather like this, it feels gd. i've been feeling exhausted these few days. no idea why, bt thankgod it's the hols. bt still there's stuff yt to be done.

aft the meet up ytd, there were still things left to be done and that's giving me such worries. bt still i had fun ytd. right aft the meetup, we just went to where our legs brougth us to. the truth is we didnt knw where to go so we just walked frm marina square to peninsular. we went frm place to place in order to survey the accessories in diff shops. mann, it was tiring though. oh well, with those ppl arnd, it was worth the walk though. i want the pictures eh feeqah ^^.

to work or nt to work eh? im cnfused. i wana work, yt at the same time, i dont want to. hw? ):

2009-12-20T11:48:00.000+08:00

oh so cute (:

oh yeah oh yeah. 23rd dec nnt ader picnic with anak2 melayu e36e. cnt wait! and on that same day there'll be SM's bbq. oh well, i cn still go for the bbq in the evening. oh oh im gona bake brownies for the anak2 melayu nnt. hopefully the weather for that day will be awesome, insyaallah.

& i've finally tried the magic bullet. gerek dok. i tried making my own bubble tea (haha!) and some sort of cheese cream gravy that cn be eaten with macaroni. oh man, today my stomach is full of heavenly yt sinful delicacies. sehingga menjilat jari babe! kay, i'll have to go for a jog tmrw morning. i feel fat alr.

2009-12-19T04:13:00.000+08:00

Hey, it's 1st Muharram today and i just wana say,

Selamat Tahun Baru Islam to all Muslims

have a great day people (:

pretty isn't it? i wish to go there someday. Insya Allah, amin.

2009-12-18T13:29:00.000+08:00

EVERYBODY IN LOVE, SO PUT YOUR HANDS UP..

& to rifah, get well soon darling! takecare babe.

2009-12-18T07:55:00.000+08:00

im darn bored. i feel like making alot of fruit juices. all kinds of flavours. with mum's new magic bullet, i shall blend all kind of things. she was fcuking overjoyed aft buying it. hahha, mama mama.

2009-12-18T06:10:00.000+08:00

okay baek. marketing proposal is almost done. need to finish up on the financial analysis and the key differentiator part and thn i think my part will be done. and there's still entrepreneurship's business plan yet to be done. another meet-up i guess. sigh, it looks like i wnt be working these hols. it's so fully packed with activities, meetings and tutoring. damn.

aiyo, WO HEN LEI EH!

2009-12-16T13:11:00.000+08:00

i think being independent is the best thing to do.

having to depend on someone so much, it'll make matters worse.

trust me. i've been there.

2009-12-14T11:06:00.000+08:00

mann, i dont knw whether this movie's gona be in spore bt i rly cnt wait for it to launch. the movie is so freaking sweet. thank god syafiqah and nadia introduced me to this movie. i just love it.

oh yeah bsok last day of sch! last paper before hols and thn imma enjoy my 3 wks hols. bt still, there's maths and web & new media to worry abt. damn

2009-12-12T07:15:00.000+08:00

like finally, class is over and nw is free time. coming up with a website is such a chore. with all the html codes, css codes.. mannn, they gave me headaches that was unbearable. half of the class gave up and partial-ed. bt luckily aft they left, it became easy and my team successfully came up with all the html codes and a great website. YES!

oh yeah, ytd was the ISF concert. ahhhhhh, i was so exhausted from doing all the ushering work. mann, had to stand throughout the 2 hrs concert. as usual, my weak legs would alwys give way. & the audience weren't too kind to us. some just had to come up with ways just to make us give in to them. irritating. me and syafiqah wore utterly formal clothes which syafiqah looked like a secret agent and i looked like a receptionist or a flight attendance. haha!

kejap lgi 4.30, UT laaaaaaaaaaaa! marketing has been a bitch and i rly pray hard that i cn ace it. pls Allah, help me. pls pls, i don't wana fail this module.

this one random la. looks cute with us wearing pink. hahah

2009-12-09T12:53:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhh~ been busy man this wk. cognitive's paper is tmrw and im gona make sure that i cn ace it. and thurs would be the ISF thingy. gona become the usher till 11.30pm. alahaiiiiii..

oh yeah, apart frm all the stress and chaos this wk, im so addicted to Glee and Vampire Diaries. these two shows are 'must watch movies'. a definite two thumbs up for these shows. kay bye. need to study and come up with marketing plans. fuuuuuhh, busy busy.

2009-12-05T12:26:00.000+08:00

i feel so sick.
dangg :(

2009-12-04T14:30:00.000+08:00

another day of smart casual wear today. but, i didnt dress up as i thot that i would be partial-ing with syafiqah. in the end, we stayed through the whole lesson. IT WAS A WISE DECISON THOUGH. an A maybe or at least a B is kept save in our pocket today. thanks to those who pressured us. okay, so basically only had arnd, 11? ah yes, 11 ppl in class today. the rest? MIA. nt wanting to present "infrnt of 5 classes". too bad you guys. we only presented infrnt of like 2 classes and there was like less thn 20 ppl in the lecture room. best best. our grp, baek pny presentation today. imagine if you were to be presenting a proposal to your client and thn someone starts to snap pictures and you gt a little carried away? ahahahha. whatever, we still won the challenge. BAEK TEAM LIMAU!

oh yes! i want the pictures quick!

2009-12-03T14:27:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHHA. see those drawings? artistic much.

that's what hppns when rifah and shahiira gets bored.

ofcourse, the ugly ones are drawn by me and vice versa.

cute sia satu2. tpi syg, babi yg paling lawa tidak bisa ditunjuk. hahahah

oh well, sch was alright.

my stomach was alr at the midst of bursting at the end of maths lesson as i was just laughing my ass out throughout. playing truth or dare with those bunch was such a joke. all kinds of nonsense qns were asked. FLO-RIDA! kekek nk mampos. you guys knw my secret alr ah. hahaha

&& solving maths problems had alwys been a chore! damn. hw cn i ever improve.

with the a.maths problems added. mannn, imma go bald sooner or later. too stressed up babe.

2009-11-30T10:23:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i have this feeling of being left out.
i dnt knw why, bt it does sucks.
im feeling that way nw and i hate it.
dangg..

2009-11-30T05:49:00.000+08:00

my sat was spent pretty well. had few events to fill up the boredom that i was facing for the wkends. raya haji was okay, no gathering as granny was in KL, elder sis at Melaka and older bro's daughter had HFMD. mann, seriously boring. oh well, mum's bday's coming and i hope there'll be some reunion soon.

oh and my sat was awesome. had the korban session and also, eps reunion! the korban was okay, i didnt watch it, was busy with the serving of food and all. bro was eventually covered with the kambing's blood. he stunk much. no pictures as the smell of the sembelih place was waaaay too strong for me to handle.

eps reunion; well, met with all the pri sch mates and it was quite a big group. thank god many recognised me. haha. the ebst thing was, there was nt a single sign of any of my previous classmates. i was the sole representative for 6 charity; yeah you could say that. bt still, i had much fun meeting up again with them. the best part was when we all recalled how VISHNU sounded like during our pri sch days. oh that was the most hilarious part of all, and it made my day. overall, my sat was very very well spent.

2009-11-28T07:19:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all Muslims!

May all of you have a great day

& may Allah bless you.

bye.

2009-11-27T03:56:00.000+08:00

im sad.

for no apparent reason i guess. sigh..

2009-11-25T13:52:00.000+08:00

entrepreneurship ~ nt that bad today. had to wear formal of which i was nt so excited abt. i only wore like a formal top and blck jeans. haha. half formal i mean. i wasn't expecting a full hse of people wearing formal today as of which that i knw, my class is nt in favour of wearing those stupid formal wears. BUT TO MY SURPRISE, i came in at arnd 8.35 and SAW THE WHOLE CLASS IN FORMAL WEAR. vry surprising. hahaha. wasn't expecting that though. the activity done today was okay. had to mingle arnd with other classes. BORING. in the lecture theatre, my hwole class was basically nt listening to the perosn speaking. half of us were playing Need For Speed while the other half were busy camwhoring, like nadiah, who cnt stop snapping pictures of all sort of things available in the room. haha ~

2009-11-24T04:47:00.000+08:00

one less lonely girl

2009-11-23T14:48:00.000+08:00

hahaha. see that? camwhored with rifah while helping out with her project. very kekek. hahahaha.

anw, it's strange why ppl would want to talk bad abt others, when they themselves are doing the bad things. nt saying that i don't. i admit i do. bt i won't be going arnd telling others or telling them off in public. cm biadap sia tu. but some ppl are just too full of themselves that they do nt even want to look into the mirror and stare hard at their own faces before doing that. damn, these ppl are sure pretty cnfident that they cn get away with anyth. maybe they think they have done too much of gd deeds that they think a lil bit of badness wouldn't hurt at all. hahh! bullshit. if youu want ppl to respect and give you the privacy that you need, stop nosing arnd in other ppl's matter la. let them just be what they want and you do whatever that you want. everyone will be happy that way. habes citer. tsk tsk

2009-11-21T15:14:00.000+08:00

hahhahaha. best best best. they are all so gullible. everyone even believed that i was in a serious relationship. mann, how fun to disturb them. it's not that i wana make a fool out of them or anything. i was just actually bored and so i just wnted to try smth else. sry guys, for the false alarm. didnt knw that you guys cared so much. hahah!

just for laughter :D

2009-11-20T07:56:00.000+08:00

best sak kacau org! hahahaha. krg2 yg tau, ssssssssssshhhhhhhh!

you knw i knw okay. hahaha!

2009-11-18T07:34:00.000+08:00

sigh.. i don’t even undstnd myself. i keep caring for others’ feelings while others don’t rly care abt mine. even if im nt at fault, i will still have to retreat bck and think of the other party’s feeling. mann, it feels like im giving in for the wrong reasons. yeah, ppl say that’s my nature. yeah right, so much so for my nature. irritating man. cm bodoh sak. everytime i give in, ppl would nvr appreciate it.

MKPL la